Today I did the Panther 5K in 45:30 (newest PR). This was a pretty good size race. The course was diverse. There was a lot of up hill, then down hill, and also on the track. I was able to run consistently for almost a half mile. I have been training and got up to a 1/4 of a mile, so I was surprised to see myself do this much. This was the first time I got to the point where I forgot I was running. IT WAS AWESOME!!! My friend, Courtney (from FFS), has been helping me with my running form. I have been having a lot of back pain after I run and we pinpointed that it’s probably because I was running with my posture too straight. She told me there should be a natural lean. I was overcompensating for fear that I would lean too much. I worked on it at this race and my back is already feeling better. Courtney also suggested I work on my core. I knew I didn’t have a strong back and now I have reason to focus on strengthening not only my back, but also my abs, which will help all of my core. I’m excited to start training for the next race, on March 1st back home. I want to beat my time from this race.
Oh, and at this point I’m down 105 lbs!
Low calorie/point snack. 14 seaweed chips and 2 tbsp of hummus = 3 pts. The seaweed chips are a great alternative to chips. They are super yummy and salty. I enjoy spreading the hummus on the chips.
One of the scariest parts about starting to lose weight is the thought of having to buy new clothes. It sounds like an exciting thing for normal people, but not for those who have little money and have a long journey ahead of losing weight. When I joined Weight Watchers on December 31, 2012, I was unemployed. I had been released from my last job due to lack of work. I had been receiving unemployment since September of 2012. I joined WW knowing it would be a huge sacrifice, paying close to $50 a month. I was terrified at the thought of also having to buy new clothes. I honestly didn’t know how the Lord was even going to provide the cost of WW.
Girl of little faith am I…I should have known and believed the Lord would provide for my every need. I remember now that a friend of mine gave me 2 bags of clothes before I even joined WW! She had started losing weight and was getting rid of her bigger clothes. I had already started eating healthier by following a meal plan. One of my best friends, Megan RD, gave me a plan that let me know what I could eat for each meal, including snacks. That’s how I started out eating better.
I was able to wear my friends clothes for a long time, then they started to get too big. I had a part time job by this point, and was starting to look sloppy. I really needed more professional clothes. I decided I would post on Facebook about my need. I did this on July 5, 2013. Since then I have received clothes from more than 24 people/groups. I have had to buy zero clothes since I started. The Lord has completely provided for me.
Most recently (12/27/13), I posted on Facebook about a red leather jacket I found at Kohl’s (pic. above). It was normally $320, but was on sale for $128. This jacket was amazing and I looked really good. I’ve discovered that I look good in leather…if I do say so myself. But ya, I didn’t buy it because I had already spent so much money for Christmas and knew I couldn’t afford it. Fast forward to 1/18/14 when I was approached by a friend about the jacket. She said she had a red leather jacket she hadn’t worn in a year and wanted to give it to me. I picked the jacket up this week and it’s amazing! (Picture below) Leather…for free. This is now the 3rd leather jacket I have been given. I was given 2 black leather jackets by my bestie Megan.
I say all these things to point back to God. The Lord not only meets our needs, but also our wants. I surely did not NEED a leather jacket, but the Lord delights to answer our prayers. It was such a silly thing, but it has already brought me much joy. When I get dressed every morning, I am reminded of God’s amazing love for me. Everything I have is from Him. He has used the people around me, to meet my needs. I have had no worry of financially clothing myself. I fully believe the Lord will continue to provide.
Matthew 6:25-34 is all about this. We are told that we have nothing to fear or worry about because the birds of the air are cared for, so how much more will the Lord care for us. Scripture encourages us to “seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well” (verse 33). I have certainly not done this perfectly or even well, but I am striving to do such. I desire to have God first in all that I do. I want Him to be my priority. I love also that in the midst of our inability to do this perfectly, there is grace. Praise the Lord, there is grace!
One of the goals I set for myself this week was to “stay within my daily range (27 pts)”. I felt nervous about even making this goal. I really didn’t believe it was achievable. Like I say, it’s better to set smaller goals and achieve them, than larger ones and not succeed. I’ve already been real discouraged lately because I’m getting tired of having to fight so hard to lose the weight. It’s a very long, long, long road to lose 150 pounds (my highest weight being 298 and my goal being 140). I feel like I have run out of ideas. I’ve gotten bored with the same old thing everyday. I know I need to spice things up, but it takes time to do that. You have to do research (finding recipes and what not) to make that possible. I’m super busy with working 2 jobs, which sometimes total more than 50 hours a week. I want something fast and easy, but I don’t know how possible that is.
Well…tonight, after dinner, I wanted dessert. This is a desire every night, and really even throughout the day. This wouldn’t be an issue normally, except for the fact that I’m trying not to go over 27 pts a day. This means I only had 3 points to make a dessert. I had those Special K Pastry Crisps, but that was exactly 3 points and I wanted something more. I had a craving for peanut butter, but pretty quickly ruled it out. Just 1 tbsp of regular peanut butter is 3 pts. I definitely wanted more than 1 tbsp of anything! Then it hit me…PB2. I have often used it to add to my hot chocolate or whenever I do a meal replacement shake, but I had yet to make the actual peanut butter. It was super simple. You measure 2 tbsp of PB2, then add 1 tbsp of water. You mix it up until it’s just like normal peanut butter. I tasted it, honestly not expecting it to be good, but I was blown away. It’s so freakin’ good. I couldn’t believe how satisfying it was. Then I remembered my 35 calories (1 pt) per slice of bread. I quickly spread the peanut butter on the bread. I knew I also wanted a fruit and thought an apple would complete the meal (snack). The picture below is only 2 pts for the entire plate!
I’m so proud of myself for taking the time to find a healthy substitution instead of just grabbing something quick, and most often high in pts. This truly is a snack I see myself eating quite often.
Below are the pictures of the ingredients and the display of the snack. Enjoy!
Now after losing 100 pounds, it has gotten much harder to lose any weight each week. Last week I lost .4 lbs, the week before I lost nothing. It’s not fun to see the progress slow down. This is partly due to the fact that I haven’t been eating as well or exercising much. I’m very much getting tired of having to fight so hard each and everyday. I’ve gotten in that mindset of “it’s okay for me to eat this”, “I’ve been doing so well, these 2 slices of cake will be fine”, etc. In some ways, I feel like I’ve gotten too cocky about this losing weight thing. I’ve felt like I have it under control. The truth of the matter though is that this will be a constant struggle of mine. I might never conquer this sin (overeating). This might be the cross God has for me to bear until I reach glory. I don’t know that for sure, but I know for now that I have got to go back to the Basics.
I decided to start making small weekly goals again. Below you will see the screenshot of the goals for this week. I’ve realized several things about myself thus far in this weight loss journey:
1. I eat much, much better throughout the day when I workout in the morning. Exercise and good nutrition really do go hand-in-hand. Now after finishing P90X, I was looking for something different. So, now I’m doing this Can You 24 Challenge with AdvoCare. I love it so far! The workouts are only 24 minutes. Yes…24 minutes. This is nothing in comparison to the sometimes 1 hour and 45 minutes of P90X. With my life getting much busier, I knew I needed something that required less time, but was just as effective.
2. Zero point foods are your friend! I’ve learned that I stay fuller longer if I’m eating more of them. Of course, it’s also nice that they are no points. Because I’ve lost the weight so fast, I never really learn how to eat at the points I’m assigned. I ALWAYS go over my daily points, which really isn’t horrible except when you also go over your weekly points. That’s what has been having the past month or so. I have some activity points, which helps, but it’s just a bad pattern to get into. If I’m constantly going over my points, then it means I am not in control of what I’m eating. I’m letting my cravings control me. That’s something I always want to be fighting against. I want to CHOOSE to eat something, rather than be COMPELLED to consume it.
3. I really need goals to keep me motivated. In the past, I would set a goal to reach 50 lbs gone by July 4th, then 75 lbs by October 1st, or 100 lbs down by December 31st (and I reached all these goals!). But because the weight loss is slowing down, I’m nervous to set a goal and not achieve it. I don’t even know what a realistic goal would be. I don’t know how long it will take me get these last 30 or so pounds off. So, I’ve decided I just have to stay focused on the smaller goals. The eating 2 veggies a day will be the key to reaching my ultimate goals. These weekly goals will eventually lead to my ultimate goal of being a healthy weight and also healthy inside!
I hope these goals give you some ideas of areas you could set goals in. I think I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again. It’s better to set a smaller goal and achieve it, than a larger one, which you don’t reach and feel like a failure. If you met your weekly goal, then increase it for the next week. If you didn’t meet it this week, keep the same goal until you master it. Always remember, these “baby steps end up equaling miles!”